Devin's Dream

I never told him what I dreamed

that night under Kenyan stars.

I dreamed

I walked

these tunnels again

not a kid anymore,

but grown,

and everyone was

calling me Devin.

That's it.

That's all.

That's the whole dream.

Doesn't sound like much,

does it?

 

I dreamed it countless times.

Dreamed of reading in a chamber

or sitting by the Falls

and being called Dev.

After all those hundreds of places -

Amazing, exciting, exotic places -

After all those dozens of lives -

Empty, unloved, lonely lives -

I dreamed about

being

in the only place

I still longed to go

and being

the only person

I'd never yet been.

They say you only live once.

Unless you're me...

Then you get a dozen lives.

It took twenty years to get it right

to get back

where I belonged,

should have been,

started out.

Things change, I guess,

I said

People change, too

 and I'm trying.

I'm good at changing names

changing places

changing lives

Not so good at changing me

But I'm learning.

I'm trying

to be

less Black Sheep

more Golden Boy.